The fern was positive for amniotic fluid. However, the fluid levels
around the baby were higher today than yesterday. And the nitrizine at
the doc was negative. But the nitrizine on the sample from 2:30am was
There are a variety of exhausting explanations. The one I like is that
the sample from 2:30 is contaminated with old blood, causing false
positives and there is no leak. The one I don’t like is that there is a
high leak and that might be why I’m getting gushes with a big
contraction and not a constant trickle. The one I think is most likely
true? Door number 2. I just feel like that’s what’s happening.
We’re treating it like there’s a leak. ABX, strict bed rest, regular
temp taking to monitor for infection. If I can make it to 24 weeks
without anything terrible happening I will probably be admitted to the
hospital for the duration of the pregnancy.
I am so fucking scared. I am rapidly losing all ability to be brave or
funny. But crying in bed until whatever is going to happen happens
doesn’t seem like a great idea.
How do I not panic? How will it be OK?