So many blog posts in one day, I know. My husband was here, holding the wee babe for a long long time, and the in-laws have been at home wrangling the other kiddos (who I miss so much it hurts), but it gives me a few minutes to catch up on the blog. These minutes are few and far between these days. The IMC is harder than the ICU for some reason. Maybe because they are aggressively trying to get Ike-a-saurus better enough to go home, and his lungs and tummy (up yours, Rifampin) are just not cooperating. I don't know.
Despite it all, though, last night, I went out. I didn't feel like going at first. I had to call my best friend and ask her to tell me that it was OK for me to be away from the hospital for several hours. Of course she said yes. And she was kind enough to not say "duh."
So out we went. Livemom.com held a blogging mom's social last night at this bad ass store called I F + D. (Go read the product descriptions – they're great.) It's one of those places that is totally too cool for me. Very neat firniture and wall coverings and accessories. The kind of stuff you buy when you're attractive and single or pretending to be attractive and single. If I had any money, I would buy that stuff and pretend like my suburban house was a fancy downtown loft, and then the kids would spill grape juice on all the new furniture and wall coverings and I would have to pretend like I had splattered wine stains caused by a drunken brawl when one Fancy Visitor started arguing with another Fancy Visitor about the allegory of Edward Albee's play, The Goat.
It was an event for local mom bloggers to meet each other and win raffle prizes and eat good food and listen to a guest speaker (Stephanie Klein of greektragedy), and even bid on a silent auction to benefit Ike, and help us combat some of this shit life keeps throwing our way.
If I am being really honest, I don't think I can classify it as a "fun" time. It was good for me to get out. Wonderful to spend time with friends…. but overwhelming to be out in public in a social setting. It's hard for me to be in social settings under the best of circumstances, so this was a bit of an out of body experience.
My friends and I wore Ike-a-saurus t-shirts (designed by Jenny, made by Amy, and soon to be for sale on Cafe Press) and did our best to socialize. I felt weird being out, downtown, still with the hospital bracelet on. But I'm glad I went. I met some very interesting, generous women – many of whom have equally heart-wrenching stories of health problems with their own children.
It was an impressive display of community that I am still processing. Just like the bake sales and rummage sales and online auctions and everything else that my Mamas are organizing for us…. it is humbling and sobering and unreal and marvelous and shocking and I just don't know what to say about any of it. Except for thank you.
Thank you to everyone.